We both know how I differ from Pierce. He gave the order for many of your last missions, even if you had not seen him face to face for all of them. Do you wish you had been able to exact revenge?
You should not hold back on contrary opinions with me. You don't seem to do it now. I wouldn't want you to.
He gave me orders for more than the last ones. I remember him when he was young and I remember seeing his face change over the years, each time when I was pulled from cryofreeze on his orders. He's dead. Does it matter how or by what hand?
I don't but that might be an attractive trait over days; maybe less so over the course of years if we had that together.
It does not matter to history or to HYDRA. But if it matters to you, then it matters.
You have implied more than once that I might grow tired of you if we spent more time together. While we cannot predict impossible futures, I assure you I would only find you more interesting. Not less.
It matters to me. It all matters to me. I know that I'm supposed to be putting it behind me and moving beyond the traumas of the past but it's ever present and it feels like a lie to say it's not.
Maybe I think that James Barnes isn't as interesting as the Winter Soldier. So as I become more detached from that part of myself, I suppose I wonder. But thank you for saying that.
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Date: 2021-04-20 07:46 pm (UTC)You should not hold back on contrary opinions with me. You don't seem to do it now. I wouldn't want you to.
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Date: 2021-04-20 11:36 pm (UTC)I don't but that might be an attractive trait over days; maybe less so over the course of years if we had that together.
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Date: 2021-04-21 06:29 pm (UTC)You have implied more than once that I might grow tired of you if we spent more time together. While we cannot predict impossible futures, I assure you I would only find you more interesting. Not less.
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Date: 2021-04-21 09:42 pm (UTC)Maybe I think that James Barnes isn't as interesting as the Winter Soldier. So as I become more detached from that part of myself, I suppose I wonder. But thank you for saying that.