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[ when he'd first set off on this self-imposed mission to make things better, to make amends, he never thought he'd be doing it beside baron helmut zemo.

but zemo's resources are there. the knowledge and experience is there, and bucky's accustomed to making use of an efficient weapon when it's in front of him. sam had headed back stateside to tie up the last of their loose ends with the flagsmashers, and when he'd left, his brow had been crinkled in concern with a wary, are you sure, man? and bucky had only scoffed in return. i can handle some rich guy in a fur coat.

because they've still got work to do, barnes and zemo, and that work never ends: cut off one head, two more shall take its place. trying to eradicate HYDRA is like tearing out a persistent weed that just keeps biding its time and growing back to overrun the garden, and the garden is europe. they're forming a wary kind of alliance. there's a job that needs doing, and maybe bucky can't be picky about choosing his allies. that clear-cut searing black-and-white morality of the forties has been gone for a while now, after all, buried somewhere in ambiguities and shades of grey and blood on his own hands.

so their time together stretches out, as they're holed up in yet another pied-à-terre, another one of the baron's countless luxurious apartments scattered across the continent. bucky's always a restless sleeper, and this plump mattress is a far cry from a hardwood floor in a lower east side apartment. the rooms are dusty, in need of airing out and clearly haven't been used in the better part of a decade, but the unused apartment is still huge. his whole family, parents and four kids and all, could've lived here and had room to spare. it's infuriating.

he's lying on his back, staring up at the ceiling and feeling the long minutes tick away. the mattress is too soft. he can't sleep. he wonders if he should just curl up on the carpeted floor, and maybe that'll help.

but finally, bucky just heaves a frustrated sigh and swings himself out of the bed, and goes padding out towards the kitchen in defeat. they'd stocked up on supplies, so he figures he can either find some liquor or some kind of overcomplicated flowering tea which zemo insists is, quote, both good for the digestion and for restfulness, unquote. he stalks out, footsteps creaking on the unfamiliar floorboards, but then goes still once he sees a pool of light in the main room. for a fleeting second, he suddenly pictures the other man sitting in an armchair in the darkness, petting a white cat.

this is so fucking stupid.

when bucky walks further out into the room, he's rearranged his body language; still strung taut with tension, his jaw set, but he's trying to look aggressively nonchalant. (it doesn't really work.) it looks like zemo's just doing some late-night reading, but bucky doesn't realise yet exactly what.
]

Still up? No butler around to fluff your pillows for you?

Date: 2021-05-06 02:44 am (UTC)
armeyets: fatws. (pic#14827389)
From: [personal profile] armeyets
No. I don't.

[ each word is often curt and bitten-off around the other man, like an animal defensively snapping its teeth. it's like he's living each day in a cage with a tiger, its glinting eyes watching him like one might eye a particularly savoury meal, and so bucky never fully relaxes here.

it's something in the way zemo sizes him up, with the full awareness that zemo knows, he knows the unvarnished reality of what the soldier is and what he's done and can do. zemo had held those cards in his hands, after all; had pulled the levers and pressed the right buttons to manipulate him. just because that particular lever didn't work anymore doesn't mean he'll never find another way. so in the meantime bucky's just riding the crest of that wave, balancing on the edge of it, letting it carry him as far forward down their mutual mission as he can before he trips and drowns.

and he's on a tight leash in the meantime. wearing clothes tailored to zemo's specifications, eating food he's paid for, sleeping in his apartments. (had bucky's current bedroom been zemo's, once upon a time? an uncomfortable idea. he doesn't like to think about it.)

they make for a strangely domestic picture tonight, though, and the awareness of it prickles along the edge of his skin. zemo and his ridiculous silken dressing robes, while the american is just wearing pyjama pants and a worn t-shirt, the metal arm visible. vulnerable, bucky thinks, but he'll wield that nonchalance as if it can banish that shifting unease of looking so pared-down and human around each other. so, making himself at home, he goes straight for the cabinets and rattles around in them until he finds a bottle of eye-wateringly expensive scotch. pours himself a glass; hesitates with his fingers on the rim of a second glass, considers politely offering zemo his own alcohol to drink, but then just takes a swig of it himself instead. leans back against the kitchen counter and watches the other man.

much as bucky hates to admit it, he does have a point. the winter soldier slept through most of his confinement.
]

Okay. I'll bite. So how did you kill time in the Raft?

[ his gaze follows the line of the other man's elbow, the book under the hand. ]

Reading? Listening to, what, opera?

I AM SO SLOW SOMETIMES i am so sorry

Date: 2021-05-27 11:50 pm (UTC)
armeyets: fatws. (pic#14827392)
From: [personal profile] armeyets
[ it's almost like the more genteel and polite and toothless zemo seems, the more on edge bucky becomes, waiting for the other shoe to drop. they both have a habit of staring a little too long, too, watchful and anticipatory.

his mouth thins involuntarily as the other man describes the raft. he doesn't want to feel sympathy for this villain; this spider who sat at the heart of an intricate web and pulled the strings to fuck up his life, to frame him for murder, to use james barnes as the lynchpin to rip the avengers apart. he wants to sink his teeth into his anger and keep hold of it. but working with zemo to a purpose, living with him, has meant it's become increasingly easier to see the man behind the schemes, and it bothers him. grinds on his nerves like a pebble in his shoe.

and it's hard not to feel sympathy, for the raft.
]

Sounds shitty.

[ at the question, he glances down at the drink, as if noticing for the first time that the whiskey glass has been been poured almost to the rim. he takes a deep swig. ]

Haven't exactly done any scientific tests to find out, but Steve said his metabolism was about four times faster than normal. So, probably the same for me. Unless the Soviets' serum wasn't quite as good. Which is also possible.

[ it always feels like a bit of a risk, drawing attention to his powers. he can never decide if he's going to wake up one day with zemo holding a gun to his head, or how long his own usefulness is going to outlive the other man's distaste for supersoldiers. from where they're both sitting, maybe they're both making deals with the devil.

bucky drains the rest of his drink, pours another glass, and finally hesitates. he wants to be rude, always feels that bristling anger buzzing in his chest, his fingertips, but he goes ahead and finally pours that second glass. wanders over and plants it on the dining table in front of zemo, carelessly, where it sloshes a little on that beautiful hardwood surface.
]

Is this bottle the kind where I'd have a heart attack at the price tag?

[ wasting zemo's money is one of life's small pleasures. he's distracted by the conversation, hasn't noticed the notebook just yet, but now that he's closer, he probably will in a moment. ]

Date: 2021-07-11 11:36 pm (UTC)
armeyets: fatws. (pic#14777803)
From: [personal profile] armeyets
[ it's been a cordial enough conversation so far, albeit with both of them needling at each other — but unbeknownst to him, zemo had an ace up his sleeve the whole time. the other man opens the familiar notebook and bucky recognises it with a sudden sharp jolt: his own handwriting on those pages, some of the names struck out, most not. it feels like a punch to his gut, driving the air out of him. when did the baron even get a hold of it?

and he immediately wishes he didn't have that metabolism after all. that this expensive whiskey actually stood a chance of blurring his senses and dulling his mood and tamping down some of that viperous anger which suddenly rises in his throat like bile. but knowing his luck, it would just make him lose that ironclad self-control instead. he drains the rest of his drink in one lone indulgent swig, sets it down empty beside zemo's. walks closer and takes a swipe for the notebook, although zemo darts it out of his reach — like they're squabbling kids, playing keepaway on the playground. this is so stupid.

there's some clarion awareness lurking in the back of his mind, too. it's not even the fact that it's his own heart carved out of his chest and set down on those pages, but more importantly: this was steve's notebook. this lived in his pocket, was carried around with him for years, one of the last tokens and reminders of his best friend. some of the only remaining proof that he was here, and which hasn't already been locked up in a museum or stolen and given to an impostor.
]

No. And get your hands off that. Didn't the Raft teach you not to steal other people's shit?

[ james doesn't even address the question.

he's angry, measurable in that tightening of the muscle in his jaw, but he's not violent. not yet.
]

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